*****

2day i argue wit my daddy...
til he gna slap me...
i stand thr
gna cry
but cant cry @.@
den i continue my tv
juz take it as ntg happens

after lunch
i run up my room
on the pc
hearin the same song
over n over again
suddenly...
i think bout him again
i forced myself to stop it...
as always as i can
i off my pc

by slowly
i walk downstairs
i reali scared
wil get scolded again
thx god
daddy is sleepin
i feel lik msgin him
but i stoped myself
i scared
he wil feel annoyin
if i find him again
so
i kept my phone away
n off it

i thinkin
n thinkin who else thr
free to share my things wit me
im reali depressed...
i nid sum1 to tok wit me
wan ting???no..shes bz...
pearl??? yea...i'd find her...but now shes watchin movie...shoppin..havin fun wit her family
jade??? she wont understand me...
nobody...
nobody...

lastly
i think bout him again
i wna tel him
how sad i m
wat'd i felt
but
i stoped myself again...
again...

yesterday...
father told me sumthin...
i cant beliv it
yea..i admit
i'd felt it
but
i stil can beliv...
i juz hoped...
its not the truth
its not the truth...........................................

now...
i on the pc again...
well he's on
but im not brave enouf to find him...
i dun wna find him for upcomin week
im...urm....confused...
reali confused...

another thing
i think i hav to start study
2 n half more months
the scariest 3 days is comin
RUBY AR RUBY
JIA YOU LA~!!!
IN YI DING KE YI ZHUO DAO DE
YI DING KE YI ZHUAN XIN DU SHU DE
JIA YOUUUUUUUUUUU~!!!

cheers * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *