confused-mez

well...many things happened 2day...im kinda confused now...n wonderin wat to do nex...everybody noes tat father liked pearl...i dunno how fei hoong get it...but it juz confusin her...as her closest fren..i knew tat she lik the yx so much...as deep as the ocean...dunno how to explain....but i juz understood it....

thr was another same case...im astonished...i reali wonder how could 2 totally same cases happened on a same day towards v 2??? i dunno wat to do...juz as pearl...at dis moment...im stil missin him so much...reali much...i wished to msg him...i wished to tok wit him, chat wit him..do anythin wit him...so...i reali dunno how to answer...they say...he is a good guy...i shud get it a try...but....shud i??shud i??i noe even i did tat...i wil stil miss him...i mean...another him...tat isnt fair...even to me..him..or him...im confusin...@.@...

i cried many times 2day...its not for him anyway...i done a show cal "heart of greed"..it was nice..its bout a conflict of a rich family...they fightin for the family possesions...it was cool...but i reali cried for it whn the mummy n daddy died...it was touchin...after dis show..im not gna chase another show..til the end of pmr...i promised my mum...i wont go shop anymore...b4 my pmr...

2day i cook phone wit pearl for 2 hours...v tok alot of things...surely...him n him & him n him...i stil rmrb... everythin tat happened between us...even v din reali started...but...i did tasted the sweetness... i wont 4get the memories between us...everythin u said to me...everythin i done wit u...everytime whn v went out together...movie together...
i miss u so much T.T...but i promised myself...i wont find u for these 2 weeks...i dunno wat wil happen nex...dunno whether im right or not...but im decided..i wil try my best...
i wna focus on my studies...i dun wna on anymore bsides for dis stupid blog....i dun wna tok wit him...i reali scared...i dun wna argue wit him anymore...im tryin my best...guys...supprot me plz...

another thing... 2day i hav a long tok wit yx...i told him tat pearl stil luv him...but...do her stil hav a chance...??he cant answer me...he said..."v dunno wat wil happen nex...v hav to c wat happen on dis 2 weeks..."lastly...i asked him...did he reali liked yy???if yes...i go tel her....n cal her to giv up him...he cant answer me...ok...well...everybody nids 2 weeks time...i juz hoped...dis 2 weeks...wil make out different...

wahhh...finallt i got stg happi to tel...my mum juz came bak n she bought me a very cute umbrella...hello kitty...its abit childish but i luv it...pink colour...vry cute ar XD...n a tie pant...thx mummy..muax

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