+ - + - +

Im so dunno how to do....dunno wats my feelin now....very complicated....
haiz
Missin him more n more n more n more n more n more n more....
keep on think bak last timeeeeeee....how good if times can go bakkkkkk...
Im stil very scare to c himm... whn he suddenly appear in fron of me...my 1st mind is faster run...dun wna c him...
Congraz to pearl she's on the way to 4get yx...n its goin good...jia youuuu...hope i can do it too la..
x(

Watever song -.+

If u wonder of too far
My love will get u home
If u follow the wrong style
My love will get u home
If u ever find yourself
losting all alone
Get back on u feel then think of me my love will get u home boy
My love will get u home

If the bright light blind your eyes
My love will get u home
If your trouble break your strike
My love will get u home
If u ever find yourself losting all alone
Get back on u feel then think of me my love will get u home boy
My love will get u home

If u every feel ashamed
My love will get u home
When it’s only u to blame
My love will get u home
If u ever find yourself losting all alone
Get back on u feel then think of me my love will get u home boy
My love will get u home

If u ever find yourself losting all alone
Get back on u feel then think of me my love will get u home boy
My love will get u home boy
My love will get u home boy
My love will get u home

i dunno wat song is dis but i luv it so much...

San Fu X(

Dunno izzit i think too much or wat...i juz on...den he quickly off....mayb he's scare of me...haiz...cuz he noon got sleep normally wont so early de ...suan le....dun think too much la TYT!!!!

Today he walked home wit me...dunno y i very scare of him...whn he walked bside me...my heart beats vry vry fast...its normal but...den i walk faster n faster til in fron of him...whn its left v 2 on the road...i feel more scarier...DUNNO Y...plusssss....ntg to tok...i juz walk faster n faster again in fron of him....ARGHHHHHHH.....i wil crazy if continue lik dis....feel so san fu

MATHS MATHS MATHSSSSS~!!!!nowadays im crazy practisin my mathsss....i found out many of them i oso dun reali understand...luckily got my dear ah bin bin XD...he helped me alot thx him....ehhehe....PMR PMR PMR...it cant get off of my mind....the upcomin holidays im gna fill it up wit practise...i juz wna keep bz n 4get everythin...im tryin to delete him from my life...if i can..........

* t o d a y *

Ntg special today....stil sore throat T.T...
Singin compe postpone a week le...dunno its bad new or good news...lolxx
very seldom on lo nowadayss..came bak from schol den eat den tv den sleepppppp....=p...

Dunno y...nowadays i very scare to c him liao...dun dare....im so afraid to look straight into his eyes...scary...very long din tok to him liao lo...shud i find him again???nvm la....shun qi zhi ran ba....

5.18pm

Tong Ku De Wo

Wo jiu zhi dao wo fang bu xia ni...wo zhen hen xiang zhi dao...ni dao di xi huan wo ma...bu xi huan jiu shuo qing chu ma...zhe yang wo hao xin ku..ni zhi dao ma???wo zhen de hao xiang fang qi ni zhe ge da bao fu...wo hao xi huan ni...xi huan dao hao xiang da sheng suo chu lai...dan, wo que zhong shi jue de, ni gen ben mei you zhai yi guo wo...zhe rang wo zhen de hen xin ku...yin wei ni, wo yi chuo guo le hen duo hen hao den liang ai dui xiang...yin wei ni, wo bu neng zhuan xing du shu...jiu shi yin wei ni, gao de wo hao tong ku...huo xu, wo bu gai fang qi jie xia lai de lian qing...huo xu, wo yin gai jie shou ta...zhi shao, ta hai bi jiao zhai yi wo, bi jiao guan xin wo...dui ma??? pearl shuo de zhen dui, gai xi huan de bu xi huan, bu gai xi huan de que zhe me shen...HAIZ...zhe me ban T.T???/?????

Sickkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

Finally its my turn to sick after so many ppl...haizzz...yesterday din go to schol...bsides my classmates...do any1 noticed tat i nvr come to schol???does him???so desperate to noe...whole day at house...guess wat...watch tv :p...but at night reali san fu...vry vry vry cold but hot...dunno how to explain...Luckily 2day feel btr alot liao...but sore throat vry pain ar...chamlo...how to sing???sob sob...fever stil got abit la...tmrw samore got schol...stupidddd....
haizz....

crazy-mez

Haizz...very scare la...2 more months oli...yesterday i took out the book...read abit do abit...den my eyes straight to the tv=.=...how???help me lerrr....T.T....
everyday at schol lik dreamin...the teacher came in...den tok tok tok...i dunno wat she tokin...juz felt lik sleepin...den leaned on the table...eyes almost closed...brain keep on thinkin others thing...missin himm alot...thinkin nonsense things...thinkin our plannin after pmr....argghhhh...so san fu ar....wan study kenot...wan concentrate kenot....wan do wat oso kenot....juz think think think....gna crazy liao la T.T...

Missssss him arrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

72 days to go

72 DAYS TO GO ~!!!!!!!its comin nearer...later wna study...
left 2 months stgg oli...but im not ready yet le @.@ haiz...din hav the mood to study la....ANYWAY...I WIL TRY TO....good luck^^...
FOCUS FOCUS STUDY STUDY FOCUS FOCUS STUDY STUDY!!!

I din msg him le 2day....dun wna disturb him la...yi qi jia you!!!

IM FED UP!!!!!

haizz...im wonderin...how can she be so flower...she had a bf...another not bf but seems to be lik bf....but she stil can lik another person....wat ppl...=.=...so sickening...sumtimes i feel sucks for her attitude lik tat...my goodness...

SUMTIEMS I RUN SUMTIMES I HIDE SUMTIMES IM SCARE OF U BUT ALL I REALI WAN IS TO HOLD U TIGHT TREAT U RIGHT BE WIT U DAY N NIGHT BABY ALL I NID IS TIME~!!!!!Arghhhhhhhhhhh....dis song stuckin in my brainnnnnnnnn.............im gna crazy of tat...

Thinkin n thinkin wat stupid song to singgggg arrrrrrrrrrr..............shao nian???wu ding???
freedom??ai de zhu xuan lv???..........?????????
Finally done dl-in my songs n those lyricss....phewwww.....

APPEAR OFF APPEAR OFF....!!! dun wna tok wit anybody..................
haizz....im juz escapism-in...haiz...dunno how la...
he din reply my msg 2day....sadddd...mayb cuzs of exams comin...dun think too much la ruby!!!!! or he misunderstand anythin???he's scare of me??????????????????????????
any1 tel me la T.T....

IM FED UP!!!!!

12.27 am

BUBUBUBUBU

Ohhh yeahhhhh...my lovers-durians waitin for me now...=)...im very full but stil desperate to eat them =p...DURIANS~!!!BUBUBUBUBUBUBUBUBUBUBUBUBUBUBUBUBUBUBU***

Broke my promise again...yesterday did msged himm wit sendin good9...haha...kenot tahan...wat to do =p...i wna msg him again arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!
muaxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx!!!!!!LUV U^^

T0daY...

Goshhh~!!!!
its 9.02pm 18th of july...suddenly..i feel so scare for the pmr...cuz im not prepare yet...but stil..i dun hav the mood to study...even i take out the book...i wil juz keep it again...haizz....
i promise myself not to miss him...but im stil missin him for now...n i cant control it...samore missin him evne more loads n loads...arghhhhhhh I MISS HIM!!!!!!!!!!!

Keep on dreamin bout him had made me crazy...i always think bak last time whn v're very very close...but...would it happens again nex time???..im wishin...God plz give me another chance...PLZ...

Singin competition is comin nearer...but out damn group stil haven decide which song to sing yet....my goodness...cham lo...so nervoussssssssssss....v're gna sing in fron of many ppl....ooohhh nooo *** ~!!!!

I hav decided...dis sat i wna finish everything of the karangan tat i haven done...i skipped alot of them...i think got 4 liao XD....fuuuuuuu~~~~but the stupid bibiana dun even care of it oso...=.=...
oh ya...plussss...MATHS...dis whole chapter i haven do oso...goi wuiiiiii....

Lai...wo men yi chi jia you zhai kao shi ba...gambateh...WO ZHI CHI NI ^^...

sometimes...

You tell me you're in love with me like you can't take your pretty eyes away from me It's not that I don't want to stay but every time you come too close I move away I wanna believe in everything that you say 'cause it sounds so good but if you really want me move slow there's things about me you just have to know Sometimes I run Sometimes I hide Sometimes I'm scared of you but all I really want is to hold you tight treat you right be with you day and night Baby all I need is time I don't wanna be so shy.. every time that I'm alone I wonder why hope that you will wait for me You'll see that you're the only one for me I wanna believe in everything that you say 'cause it sounds so good but if you really want me move slow there's things about me you just have to know Sometimes I run (Sometimes) Sometimes I hide Sometimes I'm scared of you but all I really want is to hold you tight treat you right be with you day and night all I really want is to hold you tight treat you right be with you day and night Baby all I need is time Just hang around and you'll see there's nowhere I'd rather be if you love me trust in me the way that I trust in you Sometimes I run (Sometimes) Sometimes I hide Sometimes I'm scared of you but all I really want is to hold you tight hold you tight (treat you right) be with you day and night (day and night) Sometimes I run (Sometimes) Sometimes I'm scared of you but all I really want is to hold you tight treat you right be with you day and night (day and night) all I really want is to hold you tight be with you day and night Sometimes I run (Sometimes) Sometimes I'm scared of you all I really want is to hold you tight treat you right

the lyrics is so great

i broke my promise

finally...i broke my promise...i'd msg him...but now im regrettin...haizzz...i shudnt find him de...
haizz...lovin is hurtin....IT HURTS...

wish me luck =)

Hmm....i'd calm myself down 2day ...im feelin btr..thx god...
the sho lou reali go cut botak liao ar...gosh...HAHA...XD...whn i saw him wit the botak...the 1st thing i thought is....O M G ~ ! ! !...den suddenly...my brain cal me to LAUGH...haha...cant control myself to laugh whn i saw him....haha....wat 'd he felt wit the botak le????kekez...

While im laughin so happi...another sad case for pearl...she saw yx n yy playin at the canteen after schol whn stayin bak...she ran to my house...n told me...shes gna cry...while tuition-in...she kept on sayin..."I WNA CRY"...n she said..."for sure i wil cry whn i reach home witout anybody"....n she think they started...i cant beliv it...so pity her...im wonder wat could i feel whn my him start wit another her...surely...i wil be very very sadd...

Rumours between father n pearl gettin serious...so do mine...goshhhh...
pearl said...she wil try her best to lik father...but stil no even a single little feeling for now...mayb yes later...who noes...juz same as me....but i dun wna think dis kind of things now....i think i wil answer dis after pmr...
i forced myself to stop thinkin him...even bs oso say d same..he said btr dun tok to him...
SHUD START TO STUDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
PRACTISEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
thx bs for advicing...hope i can do tat...jia youuuuuu~~same to u....

BUT AT DIS MOMENT...IM STIL MISSIN HIM SO MUCH AR~!!!!T.T
im very scare i wil break my promise...juz now i took out my phone...the 1st thing i think is msg him...msg him...gosh...luckily i stoped myself...phewww...now i hope to tuition everyday...den i wont find excuses to on juz to c whether he's on...n wont giv excuses to myself to msg him...
wish me luck...WISH ME LUCK...

sho po XD 1937

confused-mez

well...many things happened 2day...im kinda confused now...n wonderin wat to do nex...everybody noes tat father liked pearl...i dunno how fei hoong get it...but it juz confusin her...as her closest fren..i knew tat she lik the yx so much...as deep as the ocean...dunno how to explain....but i juz understood it....

thr was another same case...im astonished...i reali wonder how could 2 totally same cases happened on a same day towards v 2??? i dunno wat to do...juz as pearl...at dis moment...im stil missin him so much...reali much...i wished to msg him...i wished to tok wit him, chat wit him..do anythin wit him...so...i reali dunno how to answer...they say...he is a good guy...i shud get it a try...but....shud i??shud i??i noe even i did tat...i wil stil miss him...i mean...another him...tat isnt fair...even to me..him..or him...im confusin...@.@...

i cried many times 2day...its not for him anyway...i done a show cal "heart of greed"..it was nice..its bout a conflict of a rich family...they fightin for the family possesions...it was cool...but i reali cried for it whn the mummy n daddy died...it was touchin...after dis show..im not gna chase another show..til the end of pmr...i promised my mum...i wont go shop anymore...b4 my pmr...

2day i cook phone wit pearl for 2 hours...v tok alot of things...surely...him n him & him n him...i stil rmrb... everythin tat happened between us...even v din reali started...but...i did tasted the sweetness... i wont 4get the memories between us...everythin u said to me...everythin i done wit u...everytime whn v went out together...movie together...
i miss u so much T.T...but i promised myself...i wont find u for these 2 weeks...i dunno wat wil happen nex...dunno whether im right or not...but im decided..i wil try my best...
i wna focus on my studies...i dun wna on anymore bsides for dis stupid blog....i dun wna tok wit him...i reali scared...i dun wna argue wit him anymore...im tryin my best...guys...supprot me plz...

another thing... 2day i hav a long tok wit yx...i told him tat pearl stil luv him...but...do her stil hav a chance...??he cant answer me...he said..."v dunno wat wil happen nex...v hav to c wat happen on dis 2 weeks..."lastly...i asked him...did he reali liked yy???if yes...i go tel her....n cal her to giv up him...he cant answer me...ok...well...everybody nids 2 weeks time...i juz hoped...dis 2 weeks...wil make out different...

wahhh...finallt i got stg happi to tel...my mum juz came bak n she bought me a very cute umbrella...hello kitty...its abit childish but i luv it...pink colour...vry cute ar XD...n a tie pant...thx mummy..muax

10.18pm

T.T

Dis is the 3rd time i sign in the blogger 2day...i juz kenot sleep..its 2331 d...im reali moody now...vry vry moody...i wan him to be here...i wna hugg him...i wna tel him wat did i felt...i luvv himm...i wna scream it outttttttttttttt~!!!!!arghhhhhhh....i wna noe wat did he felt???does he ever care bout me//?does he ever felt the same thing as me??does him???im so desperate to noe...reali desperate....

2day i quarrel wit him hundreds of times....im so sad...cant juz v stop argue???i did tried my best...but whn it comes...v stil argue...im so depressed...i wna cry...i wna cry...T.T...
yea i wil....whn i off the light...dis is the 1st time i dropped so deep...i cant even take an eye on other guys...im so hate myself...arghhhh...im crazy...wat can i do...nobody can help me...does he ever noe??or he's juz actin dunno???bcuz he doesnt even lik me b4???cant he even feel it???goshhh...im so sickkkk....pmr is comin..i cant even concentrate...my brain keep on thinkin bout him...PLZ
GET AWAY FROM ME...PLZ....
T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.TT.T.T.T.T.T.T.T

i had decided...dis week im not gna tok to himm...i dun wna start another arguement....i dunwan...i dun1 to lost him...y cant v juz lik last time???/juz lik last time....i stil rmrb...
stil rmrb......................................................................................................................................................
since the second i fall for him...i nvr lik another guy...reali...i swear...i swear...sobsssssss...isnt he misunderstandin i lik another guy???IT ANNOYS ME!!!!!!!!! does he likes me??????DOES HE???
i luv him so muchT.T.................

ITS JUZ SO RITE

Guys:Put your hands around her waistfirmly
girls: lay your headback on hisshoulder and put your arms on his.
Guys:whisper in her ear
Girls: giggle
Girls:whenever he tries to kiss you,don't just let him, kiss himback. ........
Girls: When you want to cuddle withhim, tell him you're cold
Guys: automatically move closer toher. (if your stupid then you'lleither say "me too" or you'll give heryour jacket... don't)
Girls: During a movie, if he puts hisarm around you, tilt your head on hisshoulder
Guys: lift her chin up and kiss her.
Guys: When she tells you she lovesyou, look deep into her eyes, give hera peck on the lips, and tell her youlove her too... and mean it.
Girls:When you're both laying underthe stars, put yourhead on his chestand close your eyes as you listen tohis steady heart beat
Guys: whisper in her ear and link yourhands with hers.

beliv me its rite

*****

2day i argue wit my daddy...
til he gna slap me...
i stand thr
gna cry
but cant cry @.@
den i continue my tv
juz take it as ntg happens

after lunch
i run up my room
on the pc
hearin the same song
over n over again
suddenly...
i think bout him again
i forced myself to stop it...
as always as i can
i off my pc

by slowly
i walk downstairs
i reali scared
wil get scolded again
thx god
daddy is sleepin
i feel lik msgin him
but i stoped myself
i scared
he wil feel annoyin
if i find him again
so
i kept my phone away
n off it

i thinkin
n thinkin who else thr
free to share my things wit me
im reali depressed...
i nid sum1 to tok wit me
wan ting???no..shes bz...
pearl??? yea...i'd find her...but now shes watchin movie...shoppin..havin fun wit her family
jade??? she wont understand me...
nobody...
nobody...

lastly
i think bout him again
i wna tel him
how sad i m
wat'd i felt
but
i stoped myself again...
again...

yesterday...
father told me sumthin...
i cant beliv it
yea..i admit
i'd felt it
but
i stil can beliv...
i juz hoped...
its not the truth
its not the truth...........................................

now...
i on the pc again...
well he's on
but im not brave enouf to find him...
i dun wna find him for upcomin week
im...urm....confused...
reali confused...

another thing
i think i hav to start study
2 n half more months
the scariest 3 days is comin
RUBY AR RUBY
JIA YOU LA~!!!
IN YI DING KE YI ZHUO DAO DE
YI DING KE YI ZHUAN XIN DU SHU DE
JIA YOUUUUUUUUUUU~!!!

cheers * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

我疯了。

im gna crazy soon
any1 thr
help me
plz
T.T
只是觉得好辛苦
好辛苦
到
我不知道要如何说
我真的好想你
好想你
就快要
疯掉了
我真的
不知道
要
怎样办
我真的
好想哭
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

sob sob sob

我越来越讨厌我自己。
我不想浪费精神去想你，
但我发觉我根本办不到。
我真的辛苦。
有时，
真的觉得好想哭，
我不知道你再想什么，
不知道，
我什么都不知道
我好想好想知道，
你喜欢的到底是谁?
我好想知道
你对我到底有没有感觉
我不要再浪费时间了
T.T