What am i thinkin?

L.o.v.e?
What is love?
Missin someone every moments, from morning to night. No matter u're eatin, bathin, watchin tv, online, doing homework, exercisin, hangin out, or doing anythin?
So this is love? Is it?

I did luv him that much. Before this week i'm still luvin him into death. I can't find a second where i'm not missin him. Especially when i'm sad.

But now. I really don't know what's happening on me. I just don't have the feelin of "luvin him to death" anymore. Maybe u may say that i'm still likin him. But i don't have the feelin of missin him much much much untill i cannot stand, just like, 1 week before. Just don't know why. And this is the first time i feel so "not miss him." But however, i think, i still crushin him? And i'm wonder, should i tell him? Since i don't like him that much ady. She said that at least i must know the answer, about what he thinkin. Since i crushin him for a year and more. But i'm startin to scare, what if i suddenly don't like him ady just like now after tellin him? Maybe i.. Like another person? is it?

Well, i have to accept that. "he".. is really a great guy. Counted as handsome, smart. And the most important is, when i ever need someone, he was there and worried about me. I felt a little touchin. I don't know whether is it i fell for him. I don't know whether he got feelings towards me or not. But, i felt very warm for it. Maybe i need love too much. There is so long.. so long i never gain any love from someone, besides my family la. So i'm really happy for his concern. Maybe i luv "him" too much before and i felt tired ady, so i wanna try to be loved by another person? Or i think i'm too sick of his cold-blooded attitude? Since last year, he changed really much. He is not the person i ever crushed anymore. He spoiled my mood everytime. Arguin with him made me felt worse. He don't really concern me that much ady. Everytime i felt so soo hurt for it. But he just acts like nothin. I knew, and i knew he's pressin his real feelings down. I too liu gai him. He don't want others to see through what he thinkin. But this made me felt sicks.

The conclusin is, i'm confused. About what i thinkin now.