Another borin day

Hohoho~~ i spent my whole day with nothin today.. damn sien.. No hang outs, not badminton, and no tution, just sleep and eat and ONLINE till siao adi. Eyes also started to tired. haiyo.

Ladies and gentlemen,
RUBYTANG!!! here she is, BROKE HER RECORD!!!
The first time i never sms for a whole day!!!! And this doesn't cause of reasons like "out of credit" or "expired". It's cause i DON'T FEEL LIKE. Never reply a single message, yeng nia. WELL, don't count on my mum la, hehe.

The third day i didn't talk to him again.. zzz. Well, i don't know how many times i wrote this before, but i just want to write it out, lol. Next week i'm not gonna talk to him also. First reason, ima lazy. XD. Later argue again i lazy to use my brain also. zzz.

watever la. Stop thinkin that for now. Tomorrow, another borin day. zzz. But at least afternoon got badminton, i guess. Haiz but tomorrow my whole family, even my maid is goin back to Johor, leave me alone here, Sunday i have to work, because of that stupid reason then i have to stay at home alone, HAIX, DAMN.

ZzzZzzzZzzzzZzzzZZzzzzZzzzz

i had a nap today but still, i'm starin to YAWN~~~~
GOOD NIGHT~


0004, Friday

Passing fast

Days past days, it's going really really fast. 1 month was over. December is comin.
My life still da same, as usual, let's see..

- e a t
- s l e e p
- s h i t
- t u i t i o n
- b a d m i n t o n
- o n l i n e
- s h o p i n

nothing special, it's gettin bored.

In fact, ima startin to get nervous, few more weeks then the results are comin out. So scaryy.. but on the other way i'm a bit desperate to know also. CONTRADICTION!!
stupid la. My real motive is just for the new handphone @_@.. I WANT A NEW HANDPHONE!!

God bless me please（;

Broken

I guess nobody could ever understand how pain was i.
I can't believe i'm cryin for this, i'm a failure. TOTALLY a failure.
And i could never believe he will hurt me like this. I broke my promise. i said i will never cry for this, but the fact is i did. I really wanna cryyyyy.
I HATE HIM!

" ur things wat related to me?"
this sentences was really really hurtful, i can't stand for it. My mood is just slightly better abit, then he told me this, after that it was broken, nobody can cure it. eVEN myself.

I don't know why things would go out like this. While we're starin the conversation really nice, he find me to chat. It's no turnin back. it was already hurt me hardly, it's worse den u killin me by usin a knife, maybe die could better then this.
i don't know why could i care him so much, since he don't care about me..

But if u really don't even care about me why do u askin act like very guan sam me? U angry when i don't want to tell u my things. U don't like it when i'm keepin secret from u, right? my feelings won't wrong. But why? why could u ever hurt me like this? If u really don't care about me then just don't choi me la. Why u want to be so guan sam me? STOP IT LA, it's enough. WO SOU GOU LE!!! Is it that u knew that i liked u, u don't like me but u want me to suffer?? OK, u're succeed, HAPPY? until this moment, i'm still..........

THAT'S WHY I SAY I'M STUPID!

wu liao

今天超无聊！羽球也没去到，超懒的！！在家无所事事，对着这个电脑，写着无聊的BLOG，haix.
好想去见林宇仲，超爱他的！！MUAXXX,i want to hugg himmmm!!!!!!!!爱死他！！！

林宇仲万岁！！！！！

咳……好闷好闷阿!
昨天遇见他哥哥，也是超lengzhai de XD。

haix don't want use chinese liao la, mafan.. zzz. TOMORROW I DON'T CARE WHAT HAPPEN ALSO I MUST GO THE MINESSSS!!!! XD..
very borin la, today mummy take lift, but still borin la, zzz. But lazy to out also, haha, hope she wont nag me out la T___T..

haix i want buy mew phone la, W580I also niceee, @@, desperate nia.....................................................................

不能说的秘密

Went ktv today, sing til kinda high but, not that high as last time, LOL.
And not enough singing also.@.@ By the way, i really gonna bankrap liao T_____T, NO MONEYYYYYY~~ sing oso use 17 liao, haix, and bought 2 more tshirts. i swear next next next week also don't want use money liao, haix.

Return the disc finally, see him so fierce, also xia dao wo, =.=. sot sot.. XD








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不管你会不会记得我，也不管我们还会不会见面，我只想告诉你一个秘密 - 我 爱 你 。

by
不能说的秘密

zzz

Zzzzzzzzzzzz..
Borin + lazy.
Haix, i don't wanna go work la tomorrow, have to work with those lame people, g o s h, really hate them, annoyin!! I don't wanna work le next month, they're just too "gajhawkfrawhfr"!!!! ZZZ!! moNEY oso gai sui gam dor only, work for what? DUMB!

The third day never talk to him. Maybe for him he will feel nothin but for me, it's really longgg. I wanna KISS HIM.. zzz. H a i x. Yesterday was my worst night. House no people plus nothin to do, even it's not the first time but, don't know why i just felt so worse, watch tv until fell asleep, at about 9pm, until the second morning, sleepppppppppppppppppppppppppppp.zzz. But he sure havin fun lo.

Wonder is him workin right now? i wanna find him but, don't dare. I really scare if i'm annoyin him. I really don't want to be such a girl that annoys him, cause i can understand the feelin of gettin annoys, the next stage then he wil hate me. I really don't want to be hate by him>.<. Pleaseee, don't T______T.

i m i s s u ~


2058 Saturday

i-was-being-hurted

I still remember what he said yesterday.
"takin with u WASTIN MY TIME!"
We had an arguement. And he said it to me. But he didn't know, it was ssoooooooo HURT for me. >.< didn't U KNOW?

OK fine, i won't disturb him ANYMORE. i won't. Since he thinks i'm such an annoyin. Even he didn't tell me this, but i can feel that he's tellin me.

Yesterday, i really have alot of happy stuff wanna tell him, but i haven even into topic, then we argue, argue, argue. Then he fu him me, than have a *quietment* fIRSTly i was just angry him for some useless stuff for fun, didn't know it will changed to a stage which call HURT. Suan le ba,>.<, but why??? Why u wanna change my such a happy day into a...///////?????

S a d n e s s .

I-N-C-O-N-S-O-L-A-B-L-E

I close the door
Like so many times, so many times before
Felt like a scene on the cutting room floor
When I let you walk away tonight
Without a word

I try to sleep, yeah
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
A thousand more regrets unraveling, ohh
If you were here right now, I swear,
I'd tell you this

CHORUS:
Baby I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me
Cause all i ever want, it comes right down to you
I'm wishing I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

I climb the walls
I can see the edge but I can't take the fall, no.
I've memorized the number
So why can't I make the call?
Maybe 'cause I know you'll always be with me
In the possibility





CHORUS:
Baby I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me
Cause all I ever want, it comes right down to you
I'm wishing I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

I don't want to be like this,
I just want to let you know,
Everything that I'm holding,
Is everything I can't let go, can't let go.

CHORUS:
Baby I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me
Cause all I ever want, it comes right down to you
I'm wishing I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

Don't you know it baby
I don't want to waste another day

I'm wishing I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

@.@

Today was really tired. Whole day just past with blur-ness. Stay in front of the pc since i woke up at the morning. Msn. Games. Shows. Frenster & songs until tuition time. What else more? nothing.
Today had a chemistery class. A don't-know-who teacher taught us. Honestly, he looks like Mr.bean la XD, yea his face, or even his actin, his slang. Was so special u know. But he 'sendiri cakap sendiri syok', we don't understand pun=.=. He keep draw those alphabets example like H, O, C etc. zzz. But after that was fun too, we did few experiments like 'needle balloon', 'fire money & fire hands', and lastly the mentos and cola lo. FUN!!

Same thing, missin him. missin him. and missin him. i really don't know how to explain but just m i s s i n@.@. Whole day didn't find him.

haix, my left eye a bit cacat adi. bengkak. don't know what happen to me la. last time also like that. zzz.


0007 wEDNESday

The first day of workin

P h e w . tirednya. today's my first day of workin. stand for almost 8 HOURS! My legs are tellin me how tired are them at this moment. zzz. Well, it's still not that bad la, at least better then i thought. Lmao. 25 bucks, i've become a waitress for 8 hours just for 25 bucks. $$$. i want get more qian ar!! 16, if i'm 16 i can get a better job, not waitress, of course. even waitress also better wan la. promoter!! hehe. Brain also start to feel sleepy liao. After the show i gonna zzzz. At night maybe goin to cort to see my a bin bin dance. haha.

weeee~~ today get to know a gang of guys, geng le. Too many guys there till i also mixed up their names. i only know a guy called "johan". He's really cuteee. Always help me de. Hen hao ren. Exchanged alot of numbers. The whole restaurant i only dislike somebody, called "ah ming" i guess, the cook porridge one, he ar.. zzz. the boss haven scold me he scold me. If i did somethin wrong then nvm la, but i didn't do anythin wrong also, like shoutin to me, damn him la. "WAT DO U WANT?" eh, i'm not here to let u scold ok, u're just the worker right? =.=.

He didn't reply my message. And didn't on also. haix. wonder today he got work or not le? m i s s i n him so muchhhh, and much and much and much and much and much and much and much and much and much and much and much AND REALLY MUCH!!

@.@
1553, Sunday

i.n.e.e.d.L.U.V

Finally, graz to father lipz, he got her succeesly!! So happieeeeee!!! i become "mui yan" so long finally the endin comes out great. yeah. But by the other side. i very jealous la!!! =X
ALL THE BEST FOR U TWO. (= even it's abit weird. haha. well, stil, GOOD LUCK!!

Back to my part. Still wanna damn him. He didn't get it, still. Dumb. DUMB! ughhhh!
haix, i need a rest. i need a CRY. i need hIM. And most of all, I NEED LUV!! Yor, i very jealous la. I.w.a.n.t.a.b.f! I WANTT, really desperate@.@.
SUAN LE, i gonna accept another one, i really can't wait for it. T_____T

Love hurts

Haix, f**kin pissed. I LUV HIM TO DEATH. BUT HE SEEMS SO 'look cold and indifferent'.
Hurted. LUV HURTS. IT REALLY HURTS.

This is the first time for me, to luv somebody into so deeply. i hate that. being loved by people is much more easier and better. But in fact I'M THE ONE WHO LUVIN PEOPLE. So how? it's really hurt. HURTTTTTTTTTTTTTT! AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! It's so pain.
I never fall for somebody like this, and this makes me feel so dumb. it's like i'm doin dumb thing just to luv him. Everytime i've lookin for him. No matter where he is, what he doin, i'm still lookin for him. I'm always look for chances to talk with him, hang out with him. I really WANT him. i want him. i want him.!

It's not that i don't want to accept them, BUT, i just can't forget him. I can't. Before that i'd tried my best to. Till i realise, i can't do it, i choose not to. But lately i found out, even i choose yes or no to luv him, it's the same. It's still hurts. I swear, this's really the first time for me to like someone without the look, or other strong point. BUt why? Why should the first time be so zzz? Why can't just give me a better memory???? WHY? I LUV HIMMMMMMMMMMM SO MUCHHHHH!!

Hot like hell

Sleep's but noisy's day.
Wanted to sleep, but there're too noisy. Upstairs downstairs also full of people's voice, damn it. Plus i not feelin well, hot like hell, just now somemore had a nosebleedin, damn. so hot. Later goin interview somemore. L a z y.

haix

1146 Thursday

How stupid of him?

i CAN'T stand for his stupidness day by day. I'm tellin him but his responds WAS.............!!!!! How dumb? He don't understand english? Well, i don't mind on tellin him in chinese, korean, japanese, or even malay. Haix.

Does his care about me actually. Wonderin. Sometimes he does, but sometimes like zzz. He did cared about me, but he don't know how to. But sometimes, he really can make me, smile. Yes i mean smile. I look at his message, his stupidness way of reply XD, don't know what responds should i give him. Gek til me LAUGH=.=. what the.

Just, missing him.


2152, Wednesday

Stupid idiot

Flu and sneezin never leave me for these days. I've sufferin too much like, eatin 'tasteless' food, can't really breath smoothly, and always feel sleepy. Somemore i'm in 'girls jail' for this week. So damn it la. San fu. T__T

Haix, somethin made me feel more even worse. He... haiz. so chun. beh tahan. @.@..
Don't get what i mean, don't get why am i so lou hei, and don't even get what'd i felt. S t u p i d !

Kena marah again. Stupid. Everyday scoldddddddddddddddddddddd. ish. Mostly also cause of my damnly idiot brother. Go out la, have fun, till haven finish his homework, then don't know how to do want me teach, well it's never mind. But u know what's the time now? IT'S ALMOST 12! My mum brought him out, now he haven finish his homework , and want me to OFF AND TEACH HIM??/ NO WAY. What a jerk. Hate it. Tomorrow i have to go out early in the morning, AND I HAVE TO PROMISE HER, TO BACK AT 10.30, JUZ TO TEACH MY BROTHER HIS BLOODLY THING. What the. Well i'm tryin not to get myself into so rude, but it's just too......

i have no comment.

Damn

Feelin not well today. Just, like somethin inside me can't be put out. When i feels bad, but i looks happy. This made that like, everythin sad inside forever's inside. Just like today. But the problem is, i don't understand what am i moody at. Just not feelin well, maybe somethin worse will happen soon... don't know la..

Damn tired now, but don't want to sleep, haix.


2238 Saturday