Down?

What the heck?
Once again, i feel so down. just don't know why? Maybe.. miss him? i wonder.
i had tried my ever best to pass my days even happier. It seems to work when it's comin. When i spend time with my friends, especially hangin out. That's why i'm tryin my best not to stay at home as much as i can. Fillin up my day busy with activities will cure myself. i did felt happy with my crazy friends. i really did. When it's time with my friends, i'm so appreciate for every moments since i'm passin with my friends. i love them. at least they can make me laugh. i could forget everything when i'm with them. This shows the powerful of friendship. i thought that always. that's why i'm tryin to have as much time as possible to spend with them, rather then sittin home thinkin too much. It's fine to be at home actually, i can still spend my time with anime. But when the nights are comin, time for bed, then i will feel lonely. i do thought the happiness by them could helps me. But somehow when it comes quiet, when i'm alone, with nobody, just me, all myself, the feelin of depressed comes again. Sometimes i even feel like cryin, but it just like hidin inside shouldn't come out. i try on to watch some sad shows. Yeah i do felt released after cryin, i thought that i was ok. But after so, i found out it doesn't really work. Because after all, i will feel down again. Just purely sad.

Just hoped...................................................


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