Love hurts

Haix, f**kin pissed. I LUV HIM TO DEATH. BUT HE SEEMS SO 'look cold and indifferent'.
Hurted. LUV HURTS. IT REALLY HURTS.

This is the first time for me, to luv somebody into so deeply. i hate that. being loved by people is much more easier and better. But in fact I'M THE ONE WHO LUVIN PEOPLE. So how? it's really hurt. HURTTTTTTTTTTTTTT! AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! It's so pain.
I never fall for somebody like this, and this makes me feel so dumb. it's like i'm doin dumb thing just to luv him. Everytime i've lookin for him. No matter where he is, what he doin, i'm still lookin for him. I'm always look for chances to talk with him, hang out with him. I really WANT him. i want him. i want him.!

It's not that i don't want to accept them, BUT, i just can't forget him. I can't. Before that i'd tried my best to. Till i realise, i can't do it, i choose not to. But lately i found out, even i choose yes or no to luv him, it's the same. It's still hurts. I swear, this's really the first time for me to like someone without the look, or other strong point. BUt why? Why should the first time be so zzz? Why can't just give me a better memory???? WHY? I LUV HIMMMMMMMMMMM SO MUCHHHHH!!