T i r e d of everythin!!!!

Damnly moody~~
aihx, many things happened today. First of all, being scolded then scolded. Then....
really don't know how to explain. i felt so tired of trustin people. Felf so tired of acting impregnable; felt tired of crushin him, or even actin i didn't have any feelings towards him; felt tired of lyin to myself. Everytime i'm tryin to be the best, to let everyone felt that i'm the happiest person. Laughin and playin happily around my friends everyday. Pretend to be joyful. I'M SO TIRED OF ALL THESE THINGS!! Sometimes i need a break, i will be sad. I need someone to understand me. i need a good listener. And most of all i need a HUG, i really WANT a hug!! I'm just a normal-secondary-school-girl. Just like other girls, i'm emotional, gets angry easily. Yesss, but after all, girls are some kind of person like this because, we need somebody to coax, to calm us down, healed us. But why do guys always don't get what we really want? He always don't get what'd i felt. Or even sometimes don't care about me. Is this called 'negliment'? YES totally agree!! It's hurt when your him or her to be negliment towards you isn't it, don't you agree? And he's slowin hurtin me, but the worst is he don't even noticed that, that's even hurtful. Feel so difficult for myself. At this moment, i felt so.. fed up. Why there must be so many strees to a ordinary girl like me? Why there must be so many things happen to me in a same time? Many things happened tonight. i thought there're my best time after exam, but now i fount it even worse. i'd rather choose to exam. At least i can keep myself busy without thinkin so perplexity. God, please help me, get rid of these!! i'm really tired....